i dont know what to do about you

or what do think about you

or how to want you

or even wether i should want you or now

in the same way that

im not sure what you think about me

or if and how you want me

it’s kind of worry-some actually. i would like to know. so that i could figure out what to do, and get it off my mind. i don’t want to waste my time anymore. i wish i knew what I really wanted..so that I could figure out if i should stop this now or let it keep going.

but what if i will eventually get what i want.. when i realise what i want…  down the line as this keeps going?

im scared to end it, because who knows what could happen later. maybe its just about to get better. and im scared to want you back if i do end it.

yet im scared to keep going only to realise its not what i want and that ive just wasted my time.